That person.

Have you ever listened to a song that made you cry? A song that made you remember somebody, a song that is in a language that you couldn't even understand? When I listened to it, I shut my eyes and with all my force, screamed as silently as I could. Even though I couldn't understand a single word of the lyrics, I knew that it was sad, and so I cried.

How could one person make you sad, happy, angry, and confused. And at the same time give you encouragement and discouragement? You give me motivation to move on. You make me not want to move on because I'm still in disbelief that you're not here. You put me in so much pain, and yet you're punishing me with all the happy times that we spent together.
When I needed to be serious today, I thought of you. I thought of you because I needed something to make me angry. And you were the first thing I thought of because, for some reason, you're still as important to me as you were before. You left, out of my life, out of it completely, but never have you left my head, or my heart. I think about you everyday, especially at night. On nights where I can't fall asleep, I think of us, of how we takes about our future, how we ended up at the spot where you told me that we would never end up. I told myself to give up on you a long time ago. It's not because I don't want to, it's because I can't, the more I try to push you out of my head, the more you seem to appear. The more it hurts me, so i'll stop pretending like I'm over it when I'm clearly not.

I miss you =/
I'm writing a retarded letter in this headache.

Ugh

Sick.
Again.
Throat is killing me.
All I want is for you to be here right now.

-on the phone-
: you get off at 9 tomorrow right? How far is the school?
: yup. Why?
: no reason.
: tell me
: because I just wanna know.
: promise?
: Thomas Jefferson? Oh okay.
......you little lying bitch.

Head is pounding. I feel a fever coming on.
PO