Kiss The Rain.

September 21, 2012

I miss your good night calls, I miss your good morning calls, I just miss your calls in general. It was so hard to fall asleep without your calls when you left. Now that I'm finally able to sleep without them, I wish I weren't able to sleep so easily without them. I'm scared that I won't like phoning with people anymore. Talking on the phone has always been my thing. I was really tired today, and I just wanted to sleep, so I turned to my ipod, searched up your song, and put it on repeat again. It made me cry...no matter how many times I listen to it, it'll always make me cry. In my mind, you're still mine, you'll forever still be mine. IWALU.

I wish my relationship with BG was different. I don't even know what it is that we have here. Whatever it is, I've never had this type of thing before. We don't phone, we just text all day. Sometimes I want you to care more about me, on other days, I just don't give a shit. I want you to show me that you're better than her, that I don't have to think about her anymore, that you'll be the her. I know I feel so guilty sometimes because I feel like you're just a rebound and I can't even look at you because of that. I feel like a terrible person.